School and stuff.

Art-A

Physics-A

History-B

Physics lab-A

Communication- A!

Political Science- A

5A's. 1B. :) Dean's List!

And my last history essay was 100%! [I went with against-- couldn't argue otherwise.]

This was a pretty hectic semester for me... At least I don't have 8 o'clock classes next semester! (I had them everyday!) Next year I won't be in a dorm. Which I think will be better... hopefully.

It's summer for me now. Hanging out at my sisters house. :) Look at my previous post to look at my projects for art!

My water color... and other projects.

This is some of what I did for my Elementary Ed art class:
My watercolor. I was super happy the morning after my first speech!

My aboriginal style painting:

Silhouette

7 Facts About me.

Thank you Janey. :) I finally got to doing this:
So this might be hard because I've listed things about me before...
1. I can bend both my thumbs underneath the pointer fingers knuckle. :P
2. I made A's on my speeches! Granted the second one was easier (because after crying during the first one I was offered a one-on-one type), but I feel so glad for doing both! I was so nervous both times, but in a way relaxed too. -you can read about my first speech in the post before this if you haven't.-
3. I don't like cheese. I'm asked every time at the sandwich place... "any cheese?" NO! white stringy/melty is the worst (no cheese isn't applicable to every circumstance... sometimes it's good like Mac and Cheese and sometimes pizza. Dominos-yes. Pizza Hut-NO. I used to be lactose intolerant and slightly still am)
4. I am told by many instructors that I am a good writer. I mean, essay wise. also, I have written a short-story. My communication teacher was impressed with how well organized and researched my speech outline was compared to others'.
5. I'm not great at watercolor... but I like to do it. I can post my watercolor up soon if you want! It was a quick in-class project.
6. My favorite class right now is oddly Communication. :)
7. I was stuck on 7 for a long time... thinking up things I've already written before... or things that aren't that unique like I like sleeping to I'm a procrastinator... when I finally decided to go with: In seventh grade, I "skipped" the last day with friends... really though I had a fever and should've just gone home! :P I was constantly sick during middle school! sheesh. everything from asthma. stomach problems, dizzy, headache... yep. definitely never got the "Perfect Attendance Award"

Okay. I finally did it. :)

A unique (to me) speech experience

So, I did my speech on social anxiety disorder… I started shaking, really freaking out, then I guess some words in there struck too hard—I started crying. Like almost the whole time. I made an example of how I experience S.A. by saying “speeches make me anxious”. I needed laughing to make things better. :P
So, with all those positives, “that was really good Emily.” or “brave”, or “amazing” “I couldn’t have done it in the same circumstances”… My favorite was the guy that sorta related- who had general anxiety disorder.
Worst and Best speech ever, combined! lol.
Thank goodness I have the option to just do the next speech in front of the teacher. YAY!

Mixed Feelings

This meeting today was good. I felt good and encouraged.
But the girl sitting beside me totally misunderstood Orthodoxy and said it was "dead religion".
I wanted to just *gah* scream! but I know, she might not read it but I'm going to write a blog post (on my other blog "for 'in real life' friends) about icons just to give some more clarity on the subject to her... 'cause I felt hurt and actually kinda panicky. :(
My religion isn't dead. >:( grrr.
I'm actually kinda annoyed already... too many "it's not religion it's a relationship" and unknowingly just bashing the way I go to church really. It hurts.

Dang. :|

Matthew 6:34
Therefore, don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own problems.
Psalm 43:5
Why are you sad, O my soul? And why do you trouble me? Hope in God, for I will give thanks to Him; my God is the salvation of my countenance. 

Today I felt like it was “point out how terrible Emily’s communication skills are” day.
I don’t want to go into details… just random class occurrences that I just couldn’t keep up with. Anyways—of course these days make me feel very inadequate, pathetic, hopeless… on a never ending loop of destruction. It’s great to be me, right?
That was minimized to a degree with a little prayer journaling and looking up of verses. I still, however, feel like this issue always comes up and I never really have a solution for it. I prayed for guidance for solutions and opportunities. I just really want some sort of opportunity. I’m most days alone-ish, have 16 school hours, and my problem directly conflicts with opportunities a lot of the time.  :( I’m overwhelmed! gahh!

Encounter 2011!

This weekend, I ENCOUNTERed God. I also ENCOUNTERed His healing… Hearing all of these people… with similar(ish) stories… It puts things into perspective. I am glad to know you more. I am glad to know you, in general. You are amazing…

All of the crying… So worth it. I just felt like I was growing in understanding and changing my perspectives a lot.Thoughts on the weekend:

-When you judge someone, you expect them to do it again, or label them with the sin (all the same thing)… when they receive that judgement they can expect the same thing and judge themselves… and judgement just makes a sin NEVER END because all of these self-fulfilling prophesies. I do not want ____to expect that they’ll ____ again! I don’t want to judge myself either! jhkjuhgh… Don’t corner yourself into sin!

-Also I REALLY learned that people honestly HONESTLY do care… Awesome panda fortune I got today!: accept the affections offered to you- they are sincere.

-I CAN talk. I CAN scream outside at the top of my lungs… and I can dance like a crazy girl in front of everyone…

-Bad things can be just what you needed to happen. Last night (Saturday) I had a little panic and just needed to sit next to someone… and then… WOW. I exploded. Then all that happened after that made me explode in a positive direction. (Talking, screaming, dancing for example).

-Ah… inner vows can die! haha. Right after the speech I knocked over my journal on the floor. and I thought immediately “I am going to do that again” haha.

-God is amazing. Few Examples (not an extensive list just two examples)… Us singing Amazing Grace after the baptisms when Janelle had said earlier I wish we would sing Amazing Grace… When Stacy came up to me this morning and said she had a vision last night that I was screaming outside… I WAS SCREAMING OUTSIDE LAST NIGHT!

-Forgive and free yourself…. do it.

-I am not defined by what people do to me.

-thinking back to explosions- That was my icebreaker dance move! sweeet!

-Laugh crying is awesome- I left for a minute to use the restroom… I was thinking of Dane Cook’s “Crying” and how he said it’s funny how we go look in the mirror and are rubbing our faces thinking “This is what I look like when I’m crying!” it made me giggle.

-Things can change. They can.

-I am NOT alone.

-I am loved.

I love you, you’re beautiful, and *hugs*