The Other People

I'm tired of talking to people that don't have my problem about my problem. I know in some way they could understand. sortaaa. Because people get nervous around new people just like I do. But they don't have that story "I just can't meet someone and expect to not be nervous" or "I get so nervous it's impossible to speak!"(<--and if I try when I get to that point I'll just sound like an idiot.) They just say stuff like "just do it. you'll be fine. you won't be nervous." What I don't tell most of them is that I didn't really speak at all to my roommates (I had two in one year-first one switched out jan and I had a foriegn e.s.). I was afraid to say the words "can I turn off the light?" Or "could you please turn off your tv?" Or.. "you wanna play a game?" and other shenanigans I do. Avoidance is my middle name, because I don't want to feel that anxiety.

It's just hard. GAHH. I can't (hahaha :P) articulate how I feel when I want to.