Where am I?

I'm in a place where I don't know where I am exactly with Social Anxiety. Or What I need to do.
Or what to focus on in therapy.
I'm really feeling lost.
I know I need to control my feelings pre-period!! I'm really terrible sometimes.
I'm not as down as I was.
But I want to get better than this.
I'm not depressed-- but I DO need improvement in my life.
I want to be involved in other people's life for a change. -_-

Best visit ever!

I just had a... well just meaning like Thursday and today is Sunday almost Monday... anyways... I had wonderful meeting THURSDAY with my counselor/psychologist. It's been forever since she's seen me so the change caused by the medication was very apparent. I was excited to see her because I knew I'd be a lot different! And I was loads different. I was talking, and it was fabulous. :)
We had a good visit where I shared a letter I had written to my dad. A sad letter that made me cry because it's so-- hard. It's difficult that I think he won't ever try to get better so he could stop getting into so many anger outbursts. :( I also expressed my worry about my sister... who seems like me anxiety wise... and she's being bullied a little for her shyness. It was so helpful that I went. It cheered me up so much that she noticed how (well duh because it was pretty obvious) how I changed. I WAS TALKING.
I have a new interest in ASL. I learned only a few words.... but maybe my sister and I can learn. :) That'd be cool!

KONY "The Worst" 2012

FIGHT KONY=MAKE HIM FAMOUS. LET AMERICA AND WHEREVER YOU ARE KNOW THAT YOU AREN'T OKAY WITH KONY KIDNAPPING, HURTING, RAPING, ETC. YOUNG CHILDREN.

Thankful For...

-Friends! (not the show... the real people that I know.... lol)
-That my random bald spot is because I scratched too much NOT because I'm balding.
-Hunger Games (read the first book on the second)
-sock monkey. He's gorgeous.
-My technology...  :)
-Cinnamon candle!
-headband (to cover up bald spot)
-medication (because I feel good instead of *AHHHHH!*)
-stickers.
- my ear was in pain last week and it isn't anymore.
-pandora (My Adele station specifically.)/ Oldies yah!
-awesome classes.
-hope
-helpers.
-my niece is in (and her parents) the same state as meeee!
-I'm so loved.... and I understand it more now!!! :)
-I was about to write awesome classes again...
-going to the park/river friday.
-going to have a lovely weekend.... a healing weekend.
- time after class to sleep... yeah. I <3 naps.
-my mom <3
-my sisters
-my crazy brothers.
-my tub... I need a plug for it!
-I got new slippers recently they are the bomb.
-pinterest... lol.
-un pez, dos peces, pez rojo, pez azul (Spanish version of one fish, two fish, red fish, blue fish.)

-I need to thank God for all these blessings! Thank You, God. It's been a good semester so far. I'm so thankful for all I have. I'm so thankful that You are with me. I am not alone and Your grace is enough!